Part of the furniture.

[nadriel]

I have, for various reasons over the last day or so, been reflecting on some things.

And it occurs to me, that, bar one person, on one occasion (which leads on to a completely seperate fucked up mess), none of my friends call me, or invite me out, except when they need something/want my help. I never get someone calling me or texting me to see if I want to come out for a drink or suchlike.

If I want to socialise, I have to push people into doing it, which is not something I like doing.

Then there's the other matter mentioned above. All of which adds up to an unhappy bunny me.

Comments

[nadriel.livejournal.com]

I didn't actually remember that one- it was a while back.

I stand corrected. Two occasions, then. But anyway, I'm feeling a little better today.

[joysilence.livejournal.com]

lol what do you expect if you can't remember any of the times you go out with people? Of course you'll feel lonely!

[nadriel.livejournal.com]

It was a matter of perception- I was feeling very down yesterday, for various reasons, and thus my perceptual reality was what I said. But I'm feeling somewhat happier today.

[joysilence.livejournal.com]

Jolly good! I'm always writing things on lj that don't make any sense the next day, seeing as I'm a tortured soul bleeding on the tangled briar of the subjective and all.

[nadriel.livejournal.com]

Heh. Reality is what you make it. Unfortunately... :-)