Maudlin evening post

[nadriel]

I'm noticing a pattern here- unless some big event occurs, my evening posts are the melancholy, depressed ones, and my morning posts tend towards the more thoughtful.

Anyway, today's maudlin post covers the feeling I get that I always feel like something of an outsider in the many social groups I belong to. It always seems to be, a and b, c and d, e and her 3 friends....and Mike. I feel like the afterthought.

No real point to this post. And yes, I do talk about many cheerful things in real life- I seem to save my LJ for unloading...

Comments

[traumtanzerin.livejournal.com]

I do that too. I sound way more depressed in my LJ posts than I am in everyday life--- then again, isn't that what a journal is for ? For rambling, venting, trying how thoughts and feelings sound and feel and look written ?

I also don't believe that that is true. Maybe you are just sometimes very self-conscious and that is why you feel like that ? I do that sometimes too, I feel sort of standing outside - and when I talk about it, people just give me that look
*HUH ?????*

And: You are not an outsider in here :-)

[nadriel.livejournal.com]

True, but isn't it something of a cause for concern when you only feel you fit in with virtual personalities... :-)