Another fine morning...

Nothing to report yet....and, whilst I still have plenty to think about, there's nothing I can put down as a thought/discussion point yet. Maybe later.

I'm going to try and get some work done on the next part of my fiction over on nadrielsfiction today.

Aside from that, I have a load of stuff to read by the_faery_queen. Should keep me entertained...

Quiz.

TOSHIRO: talented; intelligent


What would your Japanese name be? (male)
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I keep on having to remove adverts from these quizzes. Most irritating...

Me and my mental state.

I am quite frequently depressed. This is an ongoing problem I've been trying to deal with for some time now.

The question arises, what is best done about it. The problem with trying to "think happy" or whatever is that I can't seem to get it to work for me.

I'd go to the doctor, but all they'd do is give me drugs, and I'm very wary of that, given my family's idiosyncratic reaction to drugs as a general rule, and especially in light of the bad time my manic depressive sister had with the drugs she was prescribed.

I can't afford a psychiatrist, even if I knew how to go about getting one. (Heck, tomorrow I can't even afford to eat without using my credit card).

I have to wonder, is it a chemical/medical thing, or is it just another one of the kinks in my psyche, and what difference does it make?

I believe that a break in one of a number of different areas would help cheer me up, but I'm wary of basing my happiness around outside factors.

And it might go some way to dealing with my social ineptness- I put people off because I'm either depressed or trying too hard to make friends/be cheerful. I then get depressed when I put people off, and so the vicious circle continues...

Then there's the confidence issue tied in with that- I lack confidence in social situations, and it shows.

I don't believe there's an easy way out (I don't believe there's an easy way out of anything), but I believe there has to be a way out, which I've either not discovered or not yet been able to implement for whatever reason.

Then of course, there's me on my upswings, where I'm almost manic. Which is almost as bad.

Once again, no real conclusions, just some thoughts.

Edit: Oh, and I'm over-analytical as well... :-)

I'm sure I've done this before...

You are Neo, from "The Matrix." You
display a perfect fusion of heroism and
compassion.


What Matrix Persona Are You?
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Or, to coin a phrase, "Woah....deja vu..."

Maudlin

The city streets are wet with rain tonight
Taxi drivers swerve from lane to lane
A lonely guitar man playin’ down the hall
Midnight blues comin’ through the walls

I tried to call you on the telephone
I left it off the hook
Just to hear it ring
You told me you were better off alone
I never knew that tears could stain

I’m on the roof and I’m starin’ at the stars
Lookin’ down at all the cars
I can see you
In the window of your favorite corner bar
But to reach you is just too far
And I might as well be on mars

The city seems so old and grey and beat
It closes in and makes me wanna suffocate
And you just live across the street
But that’s a billion miles away

You’ve turned my world into a dark and lonely place
Like a planet lost in space, my light is fadin’
I’d cross the universe to be right where you are
But I’m right in your backyard
And I might as well be on mars

I might as well be on mars
You can’t see me
I might as well be the man on the moon
You can’t hear me
Oh, can you feel me so close
And yet so far
Baby, I might as well be on mars

Baby, I can’t fly
If I could I’d come down to ya
Maybe I should try

I’m on the roof and I’m starin’ at the stars
Lookin’ down at all lthe cars
I can see you
In the window of your favorite corner bar
But to reach is just too far
And I might as well be on mars





Not about anyone in particular, because, well, there isn't anyone in particular. But the song suits my mood.

Ganked from mistresshayley

-The Great Below-
Extremely sensitive, you are still waiting for that
one love to either return or come into your
life for the first time. You know deep down
that you're going to end up getting hurt again,
but you're still hopeful.


What Nine Inch Nails song are you?
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Meh. Probably true. Whatever.

(no subject)

DRY HUMOR: You love telling the joke that sneaks up
on you. You probably watched every episode of
Seinfeld, if you didn't you should have. You
like telling a joke that only half of the
people in the room understand. You probably
also enjoy british humor. When you tell a joke
people have to stop and check if it is really a
joke or not. Sometimes, you'll weave a long
elaborate lie and present it as truth, just to
see how much you can get away with before
people realize that it's all just a tall tale,
hahahahaha.



How funny are you?
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No shocks there...

Although the continual attempts at advertising that I keep having to remove from quizzes like this isn't funny....